As I sit here staring at my computer screen thinking about what to write....I think of the title of this blog, 'My Life Unchained'
What does this mean in a Christian's life?
We are told numerous times thruout the Bible that we WILL suffer persecution and that every tear will be wiped from our eyes only once we reach Heaven.
While I won't be going into detail regarding my husband and our separation and divorce, I want everyone to know that I am still trusting in God, and doing my best with His help and the encouragement of others not to cave under pressure regardless of what type of attacks I have and am currently experiencing.
I realize that this may be disappointing to some...the fact that I couldn't keep my marriage going...and makes others feel like they 'have one' on me. It doesn't matter.
When you both don't involve God in every aspect of your life, nothing you say or do will work or have a lasting effect.
I know that there are some who may disagree with this mentality,but I personally believe that God gives us MORE than we can handle so that we are forced to rely on Him.
There have been many days where I have felt that way, and yet...somehow He always finds a way to pull me thru tunnel after tunnel.
Yeah...I'm still getting verbally attacked, gossiped about, stalked, spied on by neighbors, fences unplugged so that my horses could get out....the list goes on.
But you know what? For some reason, I keep getting peace. Over and over and over again.
There have been weeks where I'm just not sure where I'm going to get the money for gas and groceries, and the bills would pile up...But my children have NEVER missed a meal and I've still been able to put snack items in their school lunches. (They love home made cookies!) :-)
So yes, this IS my life unchained. Its not pretty, and its far from perfect but it is a life that is mine and I will choose to live it for Christ no matter what.
And yes, I have fallen short many times. But it's like our pastor said one Sunday morning back in May...Its not a sin when you hit a detour, its a sin if you decide to give up and stop.
It may take you longer to get where you feel God is leading you, but as long as you keep moving forward, your final destination doesn't change.