Thursday, August 18, 2011

August 18, 2011

The last several months have been VERY interesting for me, to say the least!
When I started this blog, I kind of figured it would ruffle a few feathers but I had NO idea as to how big it would really get.

I can honestly say, in spite of the threats and 'insinuations' of lawsuits and what-not, that I do not regret anything that I have and will write on my blog.

This is my life and my story, no one can take that away from me.

Now that I have children of my own, I cannot imagine NOT standing up for what is right.

Not too long ago, I had one of my daughters ask me why I ran away from home when I was younger.  It was really the first time that this particular subject had come up.
It didn't take long, but after a short (vague) explanation, another one of my girls piped up..."So that's why we're not supposed to talk to anyone we don't know...Because you want to keep us safe!"

I breathed a HUGE sigh of relief.....After somewhat fearing how and what I would say to my children regarding my family 'situation', my super smart girls 'got it'!

Neither my father,mother, nor any of my siblings have met my daughters.
I would LOVE for my mom to be able to meet her twin grand-daughters...But that will never happen if I'm not allowed to be there.

I know that my mom always wanted to have twins as her last children, and to not be able to share my joys and trials of actually having twins myself gets to be quite hard.

Not a day goes by that I don't wish I had my mom to turn to...To share my inner-most thoughts and feelings with.

I love my mom VERY MUCH and no matter what, that will never change.
Even though I cannot understand how she can turn away from her oldest daughter, I do not and cannot fault her for that.  She doesn't know any different.

Even though it has been almost 13 years since I 'ran away', the pain is still there. It's just a matter of how you deal with that pain that God will use you.

Friday, August 5, 2011

August 5, 2011 My Story Is Not Over Yet

I've had a few people asking if this is it? If this is the end to my story?

My answer is a definitive NO!

It has been a VERY busy summer, and frankly, I've needed to take a bit of a break from all the harrassment I've received on here.

I saw a piece of recent correspondence between my husband and a member of my family. (I will not say who)
In it, this person said, (and I quote)

" It is commendable and expected that you would stand with Laura.  Knowing what you think you know anyone would do the same.  In the coming days and months as the wheels of truth turn and more comes to light she will need all the support she can get.  The blog is a perfect example and now with so much that has been said and in print more can be dealt with as lies and deceit are exposed for what they are. As people state things those issues become record and verifiable and defensible.  Laura knows the truth and one day she will have to prove it. "

I have to say that I TOTALLY agree with the author! 
As much as I can see this was POSSIBLY intended as a threat, this is all very true.

My blog (as well as Pete Reimer's) is a perfect example of how the truth can and will set a person free.
Lies and deceit are being uncovered and individuals and families have and are being set free.   

Something that we need to continue to be careful of, is to not be doing anything in a spirit of revenge or 'right fighting'.
If we jump ahead of ourselves and decide to take matters into our own hands, then we can be putting a block in front of what the Holy Spirit has intended to do.

Proverbs 24:17-18

17 Rejoice not when thine enemy falleth, and let not thine heart be glad when he stumbleth:
18Lest the LORD see it, and it displease him, and he turn away his wrath from him.

I have tried my best to tell my story as truthfully as I can, I'm not trying to lie and twist things to my advantage.
These are just my accounts of what I personally experienced.

My children are now 6 and 3 and have already asked me a couple of questions regarding why I ran away from home. After some discussion, I was relieved that they 'got' it!
My girls are very smart and extremely intuitive, and there's not a whole lot I can keep from them (Although I will say that they do NOT know everything regarding my situation!)

No matter what kind of 'dirt' I've had slung at and about me from some of my siblings, I still have hope that I and my children will be able to reunite with them on GOOD terms one day. 

Someone had commented to me quite a while ago, as to how it was kind of sad that it had to be me that brought so much out into the open.
My answer to her was, "why NOT me?"  I've been gone for quite a few years now, I have been successful in the workplace, have an awesome church family, and have three beautiful children who love Jesus and continue to learn about Him.

I do not claim to be a 'mature Christian', I have so much more to learn and discover, but I feel honored that God has already used my story to help SEVERAL others.


I also want to say a BIG thank you to those that have sent me the sweet and encouraging messages, I appreciate it a lot!

Please feel free to continue writing!