Friday, April 29, 2011

I Am Not Ashamed

1 Corinthians 4:1-5 (King James Version)

1 Corinthians 4

 1Let a man so account of us, as of the ministers of Christ, and stewards of the mysteries of God.
 2Moreover it is required in stewards, that a man be found faithful.
 3But with me it is a very small thing that I should be judged of you, or of man's judgment: yea, I judge not mine own self.
 4For I know nothing by myself; yet am I not hereby justified: but he that judgeth me is the Lord.
 5Therefore judge nothing before the time, until the Lord come, who both will bring to light the hidden things of darkness, and will make manifest the counsels of the hearts: and then shall every man have praise of God.

I realize that there are a few people on here that are trying to scare others into not making comments.
Although I do agree that some of the comments have been rude and uncalled for, I do not agree with trying to shut people up by scaring and threatening them.

When a person is doing the will of God, we are to expect ridicule and persecution.

It is out of the need to protect others that I have started this blog (as I have mentioned in earlier posts)
It would be wrong for me to just 'let it be' when there are so many others that are hurting.

I want to protect my brothers and sisters in Christ

1 Thessalonians 2:3-13

3For our exhortation was not of deceit, nor of uncleanness, nor in guile:
 4But as we were allowed of God to be put in trust with the gospel, even so we speak; not as pleasing men, but God, which trieth our hearts.
 5For neither at any time used we flattering words, as ye know, nor a cloke of covetousness; God is witness:
 6Nor of men sought we glory, neither of you, nor yet of others, when we might have been burdensome, as the apostles of Christ.
 7But we were gentle among you, even as a nurse cherisheth her children:
 8So being affectionately desirous of you, we were willing to have imparted unto you, not the gospel of God only, but also our own souls, because ye were dear unto us.
 9For ye remember, brethren, our labour and travail: for labouring night and day, because we would not be chargeable unto any of you, we preached unto you the gospel of God.
 10Ye are witnesses, and God also, how holily and justly and unblameably we behaved ourselves among you that believe:
 11As ye know how we exhorted and comforted and charged every one of you, as a father doth his children,
 12That ye would walk worthy of God, who hath called you unto his kingdom and glory.
 13For this cause also thank we God without ceasing, because, when ye received the word of God which ye heard of us, ye received it not as the word of men, but as it is in truth, the word of God, which effectually worketh also in you that believe.

I cannot speak for those that have chosen to comment, but for myself and what I have done, I am not ashamed.

If my telling my story has ruffled feathers, then so be it.
When I go to my church, I don't expect to always get a pat on the back for being such a 'good Christian'. I expect to get my toes stepped on.(sometimes it feels more like they're being stomped on)

If you're feeling so uncomfortable, and ill-at-ease about something that is said and/or reported,
could it be, that the Holy Spirit is stepping on your toes a little?

If we are truly innocent, then words mean nothing.

God is a just and righteous judge, He knows everything that is going on even if it is behind closed doors.

Due to numerous email responses I have received, I KNOW my blog has been instrumental in helping so many.
I thank God for using my story and life experiences to help others.

I will not back down because of threats

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

April 27, 2011

In Canada, advocating genocide or inciting hatred[10] against any 'identifiable group' is an indictable offence under the Criminal Code of Canada with maximum prison terms of two to fourteen years. An 'identifiable group' is defined as 'any section of the public distinguished by colour, race, religion, ethnic origin or sexual orientation.' It makes exceptions for cases of statements of truth, and subjects of public debate and religious doctrine. The landmark judicial decision on the constitutionality of this law was R. v. Keegstra (1990)

(Below is taken from the Criminal Code of Canada)

Section 319(3) identifies acceptable defences. Indicates that no person shall be convicted of an offence if the statements in question:
  • are established to be true
  • were relevant to any subject of public interest, the discussion of which was for the public benefit, and if on reasonable grounds it was believed to be true
  • were expressed in good faith, it was attempted to establish by argument and opinion on a religious subject
  • were expressed in good faith, it was intended to point out, for the purpose of removal, matters tending to produce feelings of hatred toward an identifiable group in Canada

My reason for posting the above article from the Criminal Code of Canada, is because of a phone call I recently received from someone in leadership at the Pembina Valley Baptist Church.

He said, that if they did not see a "marked change in your blog" they had grounds to sue me for "in-sighting hatred".

I do not appreciate being threatened and told that "as I'm sure you are aware,we have several business men that attend the church."

I am not against the Pembina Valley Baptist Church, I am telling the truth as to what has happened between my father and I, and about my life.

I am allowing my grandparents to tell their story on here as well, as it directly/indirectly involves me.

Thursday, April 14, 2011


My children are something that I keep near and dear to my heart

They are a part of me, and I see God's blessing in their eyes every night when I smooch and pray with them.

I cannot imagine what it would be like if, in 10 years or so from now, they choose to attend services and believe a false teacher.

If I were to find out that a Sunday school teacher was being allowed to teach heresy, that would be the end of it!

Yes my children are little now, and moving out of a church wouldn't leave a huge mark on them, BUT THAT DOESN'T MATTER!

I need to remember that I am the parent, and until they turn 18 it is up to me to protect my child against false teachers and hypocrosy.

Yes, they have friends there, but you know what??

I thought I had friends too
But when I left, the majority of them turned their backs on me and never even spoke to me after I had run away.

I was truly by myself.

I have made a promise to God and to myself and my children, that I will protect them to the best of my God-given ability.
I would rather protect them now,while I still can, than to lose them forever to a belief system that is built on a foundation of nothing but sand.

If we choose to pull our children from a place that is not teaching and living the Bible, the true friends that they have made will last forever.

Mark 9:42

42And whosoever shall offend one of these little ones that believe in me, it is better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and he were cast into the sea

Monday, April 11, 2011

April 11, 2011

I need to say a big THANK YOU to all the people that have sent me the encouraging and uplifting emails/phone calls! Your words of encouragement are more than welcome.

I believe that the Bible commands us to rebuke another brother or sister in Christ.
If my telling my story in blog form is the means by which God wants to use me,then so be it.

Luke 17:3-4 (King James Version)

 3Take heed to yourselves: If thy brother trespass against thee, rebuke him; and if he repent, forgive him.
 4And if he trespass against thee seven times in a day, and seven times in a day turn again to thee, saying, I repent; thou shalt forgive him.

I don't want people to think that I hate my father, even though he has done and is doing hurtful things to so many individuals and families.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I want to see him again.
Forgiveness doesn't mean that we have to turn around and be all 'buddy-buddy' with someone.
Although with God ALL things are possible, and I would like to say that it may happen one day with my father and I.

Jesus Himself fellowshipped with unbelievers, he was even called a drunkard because he drank and broke bread with the publicans and sinners.

Luke 7:34 (King James Version)

 34The Son of man is come eating and drinking; and ye say, Behold a gluttonous man, and a winebibber, a friend of publicans and sinners!

Now, I'm not encouraging any discussion on whether or not we are 'allowed' to drink alcohol, but I am using this as a way to get through to those of you that do not look at the Bible and listen to the Holy Spirit for yourselves.

I believe in church discipline!

BUT, I do not believe that the PVBC(under the direction of Mike Sullivant) has done one single public act of church discipline according to the Bible.
I urge you, to ask out of the many that have been 'church disciplined' in that church, who has been returned into fellowship with the church?

Is that not the sole purpose of church discipline?

Back in 1998, there was a man that was 'church disciplined' for something I THOUGHT was legitimate at the time.
Now that I have spoken to that mans' wife, I found out otherwise.
This man was given an unrealistic ultimatum regarding his job, and was not given the chance to explain himself to the church members.

I was unwise in how I believed things were at that time...Now I know different.
Taking one man's word over the accused and not questioning any of it was wrong!
Something that people need to understand, is that questioning a decision made in the church you are a member is your prerogative.
It doesn't mean you are questioning your pastor's authority,it just means that you are making sure you have made an INFORMED decision.

Many people have said, "Why don't you just go to your parent's home? I'm sure they would welcome you with open arms!"

You have no idea what my home life was like.

I have NEVER felt welcome to go 'home'!
No matter how well you THINK you know your 'pastor Mike', I am NOT WELCOME!


Over the last couple of days, there have been some comments that have included foul language, inappropriate youtube videos,as well as immature name calling.
As I've said before, I welcome any and all feedback but that does NOT mean I will publish all the comments that come in.
I will not be removing comments for anyone from here on, as I have allowed things (good and bad) to be said about various individuals including myself and my husband Jason.

I reserve the right to edit/not publish certain comments that contain foul and un-Christian language.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

A Mother's Heart

During a meeting at my church this evening, I was reminded of how I need to constantly keep my heart in check.

For those of us in a leadership position, (ie, leading a worship team,playing an instrument in the church service,being a Sunday school teacher,etc) we need to make sure that our hearts are in the right place.
Yes, we may get tired and worn out....

But what does that say about our personal walk with God?

In listening to the message tonight, I immediately thought about my role as a mother.
That is one of the biggest jobs in leadership that we as women have,it is also one that God Himself has blessed many of us with.

As a mother, are we not a leader to our children?

We have been given the MASSIVE responsibility of raising young men and women to love,trust, and serve the Lord God.
Even though at times it may seem as if it was all for nothing...I don't believe it EVER is!
Gods' thoughts are NOT our own, and His ways are NOT our ways!
You never know what kind of impression you have made and are making on your little ones.
Impressions that will last throuout their entire lives. (No matter which road they choose later on in life)

I want to make sure that I stay close to God and His Word, so that I can continue to raise my daughters in His ways.
If my own heart and life are not right with God, how can I raise them the way they need me to?
Yes, I can pretend and fake my way through...But by not having my heart/life in line with where God wants me to be, I will prevent His complete and total blessing on my life and my childrens' lives.

I am saddened by some of the comments that have been made on my blog, and they are not just coming from the PVBC.

I would like to urge ALL of you, that even though most of you (not all) have chosen to remain 'anonymous', God still knows who you are.
HE knows your heart.

Please don't allow all the hurt and bitterness that has been caused by my father and others to consume your lives.
Your children, husbands, wives, and friends need to see how we as Christians can conquer and overcome!!


For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world,against spiritual wickedness in high places.

This is nothing new, Christians have been dealing with sin since the beginning of time.
If you let bitterness get to you and eat away at your life, you have chosen to allow Satan to win.

Romans 8:37

Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.